Its taken me some years to work out that this is what I'm like and to realize that I'm probably not suited to big business where profit comes before values. So, as I mentioned earlier, why aren't their many people on my trusted list? At times my old boss at Virgin used to tell me to go with the flow more often. I had a great relationship with my old boss, initially life was good at Virgin. I built a fantastic client base and was allowed to work to my own values. My values define why I do what I do and without that life and indeed work becomes pointless to me. Over 10 years ago I worked for Rolls Royce and earned fantastic money but worked with some total idiots. I still live in the same village as some of these people that made life hell for me. Don't get me wrong, their were some great people there, its just the idiots made life unbearable. Its no secret that I suffered badly at RR and suffering a serious leg injury that kept me from work probably stopped me having a breakdown.
I didn't drink alcohol at the time due to being focused on my sport and alcohol would disrupt my ability. At RR we were also in charge of million pound aero engines and were subject to civil aerospace authority (CAA) checks. At least I think we were, but it was another reason for me to see staying sober as important. Everyday I would take my 2L bottle of Evian with me as I didn't drink coffee or tea. I didn't fit in as a teetotal, water drinking non social individual. I got labeled as a drug addict as "only junkies drink water so much". I couldn't comprehend why I got the bad reputation when some of my work colleagues drank alcohol at work. I won't name them just in case they have super injunctions preventing them being outed.
I wouldn't of been the first person to suffer a breakdown in our department, but as I felt my life spiraling out of my control I honestly didn't know what to do and being forced into sick leave was a blessing that allowed me to remain in control (just). I went through a period of serious depression, drank everyday and wondered the point of living. Then came the time to return to RR. Fear kicked in even more than it usually did every Monday. My drinking became seriously out of control and my weight rocketed. At least I might fit in with the people I worked with. I got asked why I didn't socialize with anyone at lunch breaks and answering that "I didn't want to be tagged as a member of the group that drank at work", probably didn't help my cause and it wasn't long before I was pushed out.
RR gave me free access to a counselor and I used the service to good effect to work out what my values were. To this day I always work with people to find the root of their issue such as why their values aren't being met. This to me is a truly holistic view. I found that sport and in particular health was were my true passion lay and I became obsessed with surrounding myself with like minded individuals.
How wrong could I of been. From my initial course I came up against some odd individuals who taught one thing while living the exact opposite. From PT's living on pills and potions to weight management leaders who were over weight. Luckily the courses are all short and home study based which limits my potential to offend anyone with my forthright opinions that I now recognize as Aspergers Syndrome.
I fell into more courses such as The National Academy of Sports Medicine Certified Personal Trainer (NASM CPT) course which provided more logic to my study. Then my boss provided the catalyst to my fall from grace at Virgin Active. I was always different at Virgin, I saw little point in counting reps while my clients sat on arm chair resistance machines lifting weights through a consistent arc or pressing the incline button on a treadmill for them whilst they sweat. I figured I needed to teach them something so I taught them the true value of exercise and showed them posture. We worked on regaining balance between the flexors and extensors using stretches and corrective exercise which had a great effect. My boss handed me an article entitled success by Paul Chek from PT on the Net about choosing your values to create your identity within the industry.
From this point my life changed and I rapidly fell out of favor at Virgin, from a high ranking (especially for Derby) PT I fell to the bottom of the pile and fell massively out of favor with my new boss. I wasn't misleading my clients before, I always give them the best information that I have. Ask anyone of them now and they'll confirm that learning from me is a non stop roller coaster and they probably go home in a haze when I can't wait to teach them what I've just studied. Asperger's syndrome doesn't allow me any half measures, so my bosses request to dumb down my PT sessions hit me hard and I lost all respect. My sessions are that up to-date that I'm literally studying clients looking for patterns and explanations that are logical.
I left the world of PT disheartened and went to University to study Sports Science but was greeted by a testosterone filled body building world that didn't like my awkward questions about their stupid methodology. I managed to get my degree but they hammered me on my grades and constantly told me to play ball. I swapped to combined degree and took in psychology and chinese medicine modules which took the heat of me and allowed me to pick and choose.
As a second degree I thought physiotherapy would be more holistic and focused on assessing before treating. Wrong again, they cut corners, hated my questioning of their logic (all I wanted was them to offer some logic to back up their difference from what I already knew). They couldn't back up their teaching and I couldn't back down (asperger's). After many disaplinaries for questioning things, fixing injuries and generally flipping out (more internal anger than lashing out) I left in yet another storm cloud. Am I really such a bad boy?
I now had a wife so thought it important to gain a "known" qualification and hoped that Osteopathy offered me the solace and knowledge that I crave. Osteopathy is seen as "holistic" and I love the passion behind Andrew Taylor Still the father of Osteopathy. I've also took a keen interest in Josh Rubin's Osteopathic study. Sadly UK Osteopathy falls short of the original values and once again I got in trouble for questioning aspects of it. I only lasted a month or two. I can here you thinking, "why don't you just play the game", I wish I could but its not a deliberate attempt to be the way I am. I just want the truth, no academic ********, just proper usable knowledge.
I've now been diagnosed with Asperger's so don't feel the need to fit in. I can't be mainstream but I do meet my values. My clients know that I tell them everything I know and that the moment I have more data I'll work it in to normal person words and teach them. They control their own health and come back simply to learn from my constantly evolving knowledge base. I'm not right all the time, however I always tell clients the truth and never once have a dumbed it down and just took the money. I have no interest in someone who just wants to go through the motions and "eat less, exercise more" because its what they currently know.
If your my client or teacher its the same values I want. Shape up, or ship out. Prove to me why we are doing things, or your not doing things or shut up. Don't quote pharmacutical industry backed studies on the dangers of cholesterol without being able to prove it. Don't tell me cardio helps you loose weight without having proof and don't expect me to follow the Daily Mail recommendations for diet and exercise. Do not follow things without at least thinking it through. Is your body really designed to survive on low calorie meal replacement milkshakes? Quite clearly not, so don't blindly follow such a daft regime. The body is complicated so demand logical answers
My trusted list of fellow health investigators is short, they don't know all the answers but they are interested in questioning current practice. Paul Chek once told me to use his courses as a starting point to further investigation. He never say his material is right or the last word, its all about keeping your eyes open.
My list of people is:
Me (I trust my values)
Josh Rubin (ultra passionate)
Ray Peat (little interest in working with people, just wants to study in my opinion)
Dr Clifford Oliver (Brightens anyones day whilst challenging health paradigms).
This list isn't exhaustive so don't be offended if your not on here. Its my list so you need to work out who you trust for yourself.