Biggest Disappointment of the injury?
The biggest disappointment initially was probably due to knowing that I'm out for so long and that theirs nothing I can do about it. If it was a sprain, a break, I could do a number of different things and be confident that I was 100% repaired. With this injury all I can do is sit and wait and then hope that when I start regaining function the tissue integrity is good.
The time approaching surgery I was so focused on getting it fixed that my disappointment wasn't really a factor. Post surgery though theirs not a lot I can do other than sit tight and wait for the healing process to finish. So now reality sets in about the mammoth task ahead.
Will I recover Quicker than is expected?
Does the injury change my feelings towards my sport, particularly the SSDT and Scott Trials?
I've freshened things up in the last year or so and included xc, downhill and enduro riding to keep my interest and focus high. On the motorcycle side of things I had lost a little desire to ride, but my recent swap to Montesa has seen my passion for the sport at an all-time high.
Given the fact that my rupture happened with no drama (it weakened in the proceeding weeks due to various factors) it does worry me about my return. If I'd crashed and snapped it I'd have less worry, with it snapping whilst I was just riding it does worry me about the risk of it happening again. I just have to trust my diet, my surgeon and my rehab knowledge. To be honest I'm just as worried about walking for the first time. I just need to take things slowly and gain confidence in the repair.
I'm determined to make a comeback in Scotland and still have my sights set on the Scott. I think for this year its unrealistic to even think about such an extreme competition especially as I may of only just made it back to riding. It'll hurt me to sit out and watch but if thats what I have to do, then I'll do it.